Hi everyone.
I have just discovered this forum and am hoping I will be able to utilise it as somewhere to talk with people who understand me (lord knows I haven't found any yet!).
I was diagnosed about 18 months ago with complex PTSD, and decided at the time that I was not ready to go ahead with treatment. I thought I could cope on my own and it wasn't the right time in my life to start stirring things up again. However in the past 6 months I've been on a rapid decline and a few weeks ago found myself suicidally depressed. I went to my GP who put me on antidepressants and tried to push my mental health referral along. I am still waiting to see the Trauma service again, and yesterday started seeing a general mental health practioner.
I can't exactly say it went well. She kept reminding me that she was not a Trauma worker and looking very traumatised herself with what I was saying! She also kept asking what I wanted from the service...I really don't know. I want to get better, I don't want to feel suicidal any more.
I'm just wondering if anyone can enlighten me on what I should expect from therapy or really what support/self help I can be seeking whilst I wait to start my real trauma therapy with the right team. Because at this moment in time it feels like a never ending battle with my own brain and I am honestly losing hope that I can ever get better.
Thanks for listening.
I have just discovered this forum and am hoping I will be able to utilise it as somewhere to talk with people who understand me (lord knows I haven't found any yet!).
I was diagnosed about 18 months ago with complex PTSD, and decided at the time that I was not ready to go ahead with treatment. I thought I could cope on my own and it wasn't the right time in my life to start stirring things up again. However in the past 6 months I've been on a rapid decline and a few weeks ago found myself suicidally depressed. I went to my GP who put me on antidepressants and tried to push my mental health referral along. I am still waiting to see the Trauma service again, and yesterday started seeing a general mental health practioner.
I can't exactly say it went well. She kept reminding me that she was not a Trauma worker and looking very traumatised herself with what I was saying! She also kept asking what I wanted from the service...I really don't know. I want to get better, I don't want to feel suicidal any more.
I'm just wondering if anyone can enlighten me on what I should expect from therapy or really what support/self help I can be seeking whilst I wait to start my real trauma therapy with the right team. Because at this moment in time it feels like a never ending battle with my own brain and I am honestly losing hope that I can ever get better.
Thanks for listening.