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I'm just realizing how much I self-sabotage. I have been working on healing for a long time now and part of what helps me is painting. I notice now that I will almost complete a painting and stop. I look at it for days and feel like I can never finish it, all the while telling myself I'll never be any good at it.

Is this a part of learned helplessness? Any pointers for more reading in this area?

I think I've gained in some areas of healing but this one seems to be almost getting stronger. I feel like I'm giving up more as the days pass. Probably has a lot to do with living with my elderly narcissistic father and being stuck here with no end in sight. .  . .but I am working on a plan to get away more often.

Thank you

Well this looks like where I need to be. Time to get away from the obsessive thinking about what happened and move on toward the cures and healing.

I had a borderline/histronic/OCD mother, AS/Narcissistic father, bipolar/sociopathic husband...whew! Yes, there's some healing that needs to be done here! So glad to have found this forum.