Oh, thank you, Hope. So great to hear from you and receive your kind support.
I am going through this odd "All or Nothing" phase. Maybe "black and white thinking"? I feel like I have to be perfect, happy, cheerful, compliant in order not to feel abandoned. It feels like I am in this weird game, where I have one shot--one moment where I show something in me that might not be pleasant, perfect, happy, cheerful, compliant. After that, if I show that imperfect part of me again, I will be abandoned and alone.
Anyone out there feel this weird trap of perfectionism or abandonment?
I am going through this odd "All or Nothing" phase. Maybe "black and white thinking"? I feel like I have to be perfect, happy, cheerful, compliant in order not to feel abandoned. It feels like I am in this weird game, where I have one shot--one moment where I show something in me that might not be pleasant, perfect, happy, cheerful, compliant. After that, if I show that imperfect part of me again, I will be abandoned and alone.
Anyone out there feel this weird trap of perfectionism or abandonment?