I find the fact i have lost so much time, initially through addictions and avoidant behaviour, and laterly through depression and battling through recovery that it makes me sad and angry often. Just the lost opportunity, the lost potential and the lost chances of normalcy.
however i do feel like i have learnt more, and feel i am a more wise than others through all this but apart from say in our community i dont know how this plays out in society etc, people dont generally relate or understand, and this makes me feel behind / have missed milestones and that normal life
e.g. wish i had the courage to be more adventurious, but with my still highly active flight or fight response, this isnt likely to happen anytime soon
anyway, its a bit of a rant, but i am keen to hear how others have come to terms with this aspect, as i feel it sometimes slows me down and my progress
thank you all and best wishes
however i do feel like i have learnt more, and feel i am a more wise than others through all this but apart from say in our community i dont know how this plays out in society etc, people dont generally relate or understand, and this makes me feel behind / have missed milestones and that normal life
e.g. wish i had the courage to be more adventurious, but with my still highly active flight or fight response, this isnt likely to happen anytime soon
anyway, its a bit of a rant, but i am keen to hear how others have come to terms with this aspect, as i feel it sometimes slows me down and my progress
thank you all and best wishes