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thank you. i really appreciate all  your responses. they have been very comforting (to know i'm not alone) and helpful.

I know, I tried to avoid by letting her know I wanted to stop the conversation there, but she is someone who needs to talk about her emotions. which.... people should.  she didn't know how bad it was. but there needs to be a certain level of understanding. i don't think we can continue life just avoiding situations. i want to learn how to address those emotions or situations and handle them in a positive way. it's also scary to think about addressing them.

and what are some methods that have helped with regulating emotions?

SO recently I became triggered from what should have been a "small" fight/confrontation with a friend and I turned it into something explosive. I said the meanest things to her in fear she would leave me (makes sense right?). Without getting too into it, I've had an emotionally abusive childhood. So, at the slightest sign of conflict I will go into fight or flight. I have this overwhelming rage which just takes over me when I sense danger (my emotions are always on alert). This is an ongoing problem in close relationships. Some doctors have said its BPD...my therapist says its a normal reaction to an unstable environment growing up like CPTSD. My question is...how do you deal with it? I feel like I'm obsessed over this "diagnosis" and either proving it wrong or right. I know it doesn't define me, and it's easier to categorize people into groups but how do you deal with it?