I married to a good man.
He comes from a very dysfunctional family. Father was narcissist (pacing my husband as his Golden Child, being unbearable), his mother was emotionally/verbally abused by father (sometimes physical) and enabling and then there is the older brother; 5 years older than my husband.
He sexually abused my husband when they were 12 and 17 twice. Basically he came into the shower where my husband was when they were home alone, tried to rape him, forced him to give him oral sex etc. Got my husband to "believe" they both wanted it...or at least it was their common secret.
I am the only one who knows this, my husband confined in me years ago but at that time he said it was buried inside him and he was doing ok just not thinking about it.
A few years later my husband who ran his own business (paced by his N father) got a burnout and was on sick leave with stress related illness for 8 months. N father went mental, trying to hide it from others (not to place shame on the family that my husband was so weak), never had any understanding and was acting horribly. N father past away 2 years later.
Since then (this all happened around 4 years ago) my husband has been on medication and is back to work. He is though just the shadow of his former self. Fighting not to become depressed again, trying to take care of his now widowed mother who uses him to service her but never is interested in him. She prefers the abusive brother who has always been very dysfunctional (very asocial, rude, ungrateful etc. ) and still playing his role as the family fixer.
However, my husband seems to be exploiting on the inside. If he hears news about child sexual abuse he rages on the inside (he tells me this), he has nightmares about me or our two girls being raped or violated in other ways, he ruminates about all the bad things that can happen to us.
Yesterday he told me he had this longing of telling his mother about what his brother did to him. I asked him why (not that I don't get it, just to better understand his though process) and he wanted her to sympathize. To see that he has been an offer. I felt like I saw his inner child in his eyes when he told me this.
He doesn´t want to tell her though, because he is sure that if this comes to the surface his brother will kill himself and his mother will die of sorrow.
I would personally guess that his brother would deny the complete thing and my husband would end up being the crazy one being kicked out of the family....
My husband has once confronted his brother about the abuse but all he got back was a casual "we don´t talk about this".
Personally I hate his brother. I think he is a sick man. He now has a new girlfriend and they´re trying to conceive. He is 45, she is 7 years younger. She doesn´t seem to see that he is weird. MIL loves his new girlfriend and says he is so happy and sweet....it´s like being in a theater play. We have two daughters and I will not have them close to this *. Happily the brother lives abroad so we only see them 1-2 times a year under controlled conditions. Brother never contacts us but my husband fulfills his role of keeping the family together by calling him and acting like they´re good brothers every now and then.
So, my question is. What are your thoughts? Should he tell his mother? How can I help him? We live in Europe and trauma therapy is non-existing. My husband eats more and more medication.
I hate to see him suffer. Any words of advice would be appreciated.
He comes from a very dysfunctional family. Father was narcissist (pacing my husband as his Golden Child, being unbearable), his mother was emotionally/verbally abused by father (sometimes physical) and enabling and then there is the older brother; 5 years older than my husband.
He sexually abused my husband when they were 12 and 17 twice. Basically he came into the shower where my husband was when they were home alone, tried to rape him, forced him to give him oral sex etc. Got my husband to "believe" they both wanted it...or at least it was their common secret.
I am the only one who knows this, my husband confined in me years ago but at that time he said it was buried inside him and he was doing ok just not thinking about it.
A few years later my husband who ran his own business (paced by his N father) got a burnout and was on sick leave with stress related illness for 8 months. N father went mental, trying to hide it from others (not to place shame on the family that my husband was so weak), never had any understanding and was acting horribly. N father past away 2 years later.
Since then (this all happened around 4 years ago) my husband has been on medication and is back to work. He is though just the shadow of his former self. Fighting not to become depressed again, trying to take care of his now widowed mother who uses him to service her but never is interested in him. She prefers the abusive brother who has always been very dysfunctional (very asocial, rude, ungrateful etc. ) and still playing his role as the family fixer.
However, my husband seems to be exploiting on the inside. If he hears news about child sexual abuse he rages on the inside (he tells me this), he has nightmares about me or our two girls being raped or violated in other ways, he ruminates about all the bad things that can happen to us.
Yesterday he told me he had this longing of telling his mother about what his brother did to him. I asked him why (not that I don't get it, just to better understand his though process) and he wanted her to sympathize. To see that he has been an offer. I felt like I saw his inner child in his eyes when he told me this.
He doesn´t want to tell her though, because he is sure that if this comes to the surface his brother will kill himself and his mother will die of sorrow.
I would personally guess that his brother would deny the complete thing and my husband would end up being the crazy one being kicked out of the family....
My husband has once confronted his brother about the abuse but all he got back was a casual "we don´t talk about this".
Personally I hate his brother. I think he is a sick man. He now has a new girlfriend and they´re trying to conceive. He is 45, she is 7 years younger. She doesn´t seem to see that he is weird. MIL loves his new girlfriend and says he is so happy and sweet....it´s like being in a theater play. We have two daughters and I will not have them close to this *. Happily the brother lives abroad so we only see them 1-2 times a year under controlled conditions. Brother never contacts us but my husband fulfills his role of keeping the family together by calling him and acting like they´re good brothers every now and then.
So, my question is. What are your thoughts? Should he tell his mother? How can I help him? We live in Europe and trauma therapy is non-existing. My husband eats more and more medication.
I hate to see him suffer. Any words of advice would be appreciated.