I think the song I associate the most with my trauma is Waltz #2 by Elliott Smith. It has for years now, succinctly and viscerally reflected exactly how I feel about my mother.
"I'm never gonna know you now
But I'm gonna love you anyhow"
That's how I feel about my mother now. I will never fully know her or trust her again. She has ruined that by her own decisions. But I can still love her despite that, just not in the way a child usually would.
"I'm never gonna know you now
But I'm gonna love you anyhow"
That's how I feel about my mother now. I will never fully know her or trust her again. She has ruined that by her own decisions. But I can still love her despite that, just not in the way a child usually would.