Hi all!
I made it through the job interviews. Not sure yet if I got one of the jobs, but trying to stay positive. I would say that I did a good job bringing positive energy and the appearance of confidence to each interview.
Unfortunately, the experience of job interviews is quite triggering for me. The FOO is obsessed with my career and academic achievement, so high stakes job stuff is still tough.
Leading up to the interviews, I really struggled with the critical inner voice of my mom...all the usual disparaging narcissistic ideas came up. I kept thinking about what she would say about my appearance, my outfit, my body language, posture....etc. Lots of feelings about whether I'm good enough and whether I deserve the jobs came up.
I try to remember that psychologically healthy people don't obsess and judge over a million tiny details related to appearance and behavior, but after a lifetime of constant criticism, it was tough to keep the negative thoughts away before and after the interviews.
I'm very thankful for everyone's support here! It really is a huge help when these moments arise.
Warmly,
roro
I made it through the job interviews. Not sure yet if I got one of the jobs, but trying to stay positive. I would say that I did a good job bringing positive energy and the appearance of confidence to each interview.
Unfortunately, the experience of job interviews is quite triggering for me. The FOO is obsessed with my career and academic achievement, so high stakes job stuff is still tough.
Leading up to the interviews, I really struggled with the critical inner voice of my mom...all the usual disparaging narcissistic ideas came up. I kept thinking about what she would say about my appearance, my outfit, my body language, posture....etc. Lots of feelings about whether I'm good enough and whether I deserve the jobs came up.
I try to remember that psychologically healthy people don't obsess and judge over a million tiny details related to appearance and behavior, but after a lifetime of constant criticism, it was tough to keep the negative thoughts away before and after the interviews.
I'm very thankful for everyone's support here! It really is a huge help when these moments arise.
Warmly,
roro