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Amen, I'm grateful for my new job, all the people in my life who love me and have tried to help even when I was a pain in the *, and my three beautiful children.

I like Joe Cocker, I like his songs "A little help from my friends", and "Up were we belong" with Kim Carnes.

I went to a godsmack concert once...they literally blew the the plaster off the walls lol

lol nice

I used to write until my ex threw my 20 some odd poems and a hand full of short stories in the trash, pretty much lost interest after hearing I was a no talent hack.

nervous and apprehensive, I have to go to court in a week and a half over custody of my children. Inadequate not sure I'm good enough to raise them alone. Petrified of failing yet again.

Picture, So do I lol

Today I realized fully that I was partly responsible for the disaster that was my just end relationship, my fault? inactivity, sitting idly by a letting her do things I knew to be wrong, constantly covering for her and being her scapegoat. I have realized my fault accepted my blame, give my penance, and leave her to her part.

I'm grateful for 3 beautiful children that I hope to have back with me very soon.

Gees where to begin lol I like Rush I like Rollins but when I'm in an especially pissy mood I spin some godsmack...shoot every godsmack song ever written. Usually I like the slower quiet ballad type stuff. But I think the song I will have to recommend on her...."Only God Knows Why" by Kid Rock, It speaks so much about how I feel inside...

"Only God Knows Why"


I've been sittin here
Tryin to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks * with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

Yeah
As it...hey

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the * that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin
I've been walking that there line
So I think I'll keep a walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God
Only God
Only God knows why, why, why, why
Only God...knows...why, why, why
Only God knows why
Take me to the river edge
Take me to the river, hey hey hey

I will play this song over and over and over singin at the top of lungs feelin every word!

hmmm having a very hard time with this one right now..........

good with my hands
honest
hardworking
caring

eh....all I can manage is four http://outofthefog.net/C-PTSD/forum/Smileys/classic/cry.gif

Ty at the moment I feel abit like I'm in a hurricane, and its got a lot more steam then I have strength. But ys. this board and OOTF have helped me soo much.

I came here about 6 months ago, but due to my stupidly getting reinvolved with my uPD exgf I haven't been able to post on here or on OOTF, I had mention that my trials with my ex would not be over until I got my children out of the situation. Well that may very well come to fruition in about 2 weeks. My ex completely snapped over the summer, and I do not mean that to be making fun of her, something happened sometime in july and she has come completely unwound. My youngest child was with her when the "event" took place thanking sleeping in her own room, the two older ones were here with me. Anyway, she is now institutionalized and her father and stepmother have custody of the children until such time as I can get my affairs in order and take custody of them. I go to court Sept 3rd, I should hopefully be starting my new job next week, and be in my new apartment the first of the month. Sorry rain never got to that website you mentioned, I intend to check it out. And sorry it took so long to get back here. hope to talk more, I need all the support right now I can get.

The situation wont be completely "over' until I get my children out of it.