Hello, I'm chromedy!
Im sorry if this is long I tried to be short omg. I have never sought out a group for support, let alone talked about this knowing the full extent of what it was now...
I have pretty bad social anxiety and it unfortunately persists online so just a heads up I guess.
I'm here for validation and support as I get back into therapy after having a pretty rough time dealing with my depression and ptsd.
I've recently become aware that things I've so desperately tried to rationalize and say weren't what they were... are.
No matter how much searching I do I can't find anyone or anything similar to what happened to me so I feel extra alone and isolated. Please comment if your situation was similar and comfortable saying so.
I was a 14 yr old girl who was groomed by a beloved female teacher in high school and depending on what article or website I read, SA played a part. I won't be graphic obviously but it was so subtle its taken me 9 years to see it for what it was.
It has ruined my life. I feel like I was in high school yesterday but 9 years have passed and I'm now a mother and engaged. I cannot be frozen in this time anymore for the sake of my child but the reminders are constant. I'm not sure what recovery really looks like from this as it seems things I remember just keep getting worse. This isn't my only childhood trauma. I really don't want to make this post long, I feel bad. But it involves my mother as she ultimately had a hand in everything here. I'm willing to answer any questions and can go more in depth to make more sense. Basically I had 2 horrific events, both ongoing, when I was a small child and when I was a teenager. Its the teenager one that's messing with me the most right now. Thanks for reading this much
Im sorry if this is long I tried to be short omg. I have never sought out a group for support, let alone talked about this knowing the full extent of what it was now...
I have pretty bad social anxiety and it unfortunately persists online so just a heads up I guess.
I'm here for validation and support as I get back into therapy after having a pretty rough time dealing with my depression and ptsd.
I've recently become aware that things I've so desperately tried to rationalize and say weren't what they were... are.
No matter how much searching I do I can't find anyone or anything similar to what happened to me so I feel extra alone and isolated. Please comment if your situation was similar and comfortable saying so.
I was a 14 yr old girl who was groomed by a beloved female teacher in high school and depending on what article or website I read, SA played a part. I won't be graphic obviously but it was so subtle its taken me 9 years to see it for what it was.
It has ruined my life. I feel like I was in high school yesterday but 9 years have passed and I'm now a mother and engaged. I cannot be frozen in this time anymore for the sake of my child but the reminders are constant. I'm not sure what recovery really looks like from this as it seems things I remember just keep getting worse. This isn't my only childhood trauma. I really don't want to make this post long, I feel bad. But it involves my mother as she ultimately had a hand in everything here. I'm willing to answer any questions and can go more in depth to make more sense. Basically I had 2 horrific events, both ongoing, when I was a small child and when I was a teenager. Its the teenager one that's messing with me the most right now. Thanks for reading this much