Hello Everyone,
I have come and gone from this forum thoughout the past several months. I read some, and then ponder. I've been coming back more frequently lately, because I feel like I've hit a plateau, and I'm not sure what to do/read/say. I'm feeling very restless.
The main thing on my mind is my marriage (still). I have concluded that my FOO made it possible for me to willing enter into this relationship, thinking it was good and "normal". The thing is, it's not good and normal, but I still can't decide if it's worth hanging in there or not.
So the question on my mind, as I continue to try to understand this diagnosis, is when/how did each of you start to experience symptoms related to CPTSD?
My experience is that I did not have any symptoms until maybe a few years ago...and then they were so mild that one would probably not even notice them. I sure didn't. It really started when, after an argument with my husband, a "switch flipped", and I haven't felt the same since. That was when I started having obvious symptoms.
It just keeps bringing me to the conclusion that my husband caused my CPTSD, therefore I need to get out of this marriage. I did experience trauma in my childhood though, so why did CPTSD lie dormant for 20+ years?
I feel like I have no inner compass when it comes to this. I've made great strides in other areas, and my compass seems strong there. I have a blind spot that I'm trying to shine some light one, and thought maybe hearing from others would help.
Thanks!
I have come and gone from this forum thoughout the past several months. I read some, and then ponder. I've been coming back more frequently lately, because I feel like I've hit a plateau, and I'm not sure what to do/read/say. I'm feeling very restless.
The main thing on my mind is my marriage (still). I have concluded that my FOO made it possible for me to willing enter into this relationship, thinking it was good and "normal". The thing is, it's not good and normal, but I still can't decide if it's worth hanging in there or not.
So the question on my mind, as I continue to try to understand this diagnosis, is when/how did each of you start to experience symptoms related to CPTSD?
My experience is that I did not have any symptoms until maybe a few years ago...and then they were so mild that one would probably not even notice them. I sure didn't. It really started when, after an argument with my husband, a "switch flipped", and I haven't felt the same since. That was when I started having obvious symptoms.
It just keeps bringing me to the conclusion that my husband caused my CPTSD, therefore I need to get out of this marriage. I did experience trauma in my childhood though, so why did CPTSD lie dormant for 20+ years?
I feel like I have no inner compass when it comes to this. I've made great strides in other areas, and my compass seems strong there. I have a blind spot that I'm trying to shine some light one, and thought maybe hearing from others would help.
Thanks!