Welcome Miss Understand, So sorry to hear it has taken you a lifetime to find out what is wrong but glad that you finally have I knew there was something wrong for a long time, but did not get diagnosed until I was 57. But I am glad to know and it gives me something to work towards.
Before my diagnosis? I just knew there was something wrong with me. I knew I was feeling a lot more than other people did in the same situations. Say 4 mangers and the boss are sitting in a conference room, and the 4 managers are getting chewed out. And I am one of the managers. And the boss is a wildly angry apoplectic man who yelled first and asked questions later. And say he was screaming at the 4 of us. I was the one paralyzed with fear. The rest were merely uncomfortable or embarrassed. But me? I was terrified and cried in the bathroom after the meeting was over.
So I've known a long time, particularly around angry people like my old boss that something was wrong. I also know or am learning how to either stick up for myself, fight through the fear and stick up for myself or else walk away. Since being diagnosed I have practiced many times giving that old boss a piece of my mind!
Anyway welcome and glad to have you!
Before my diagnosis? I just knew there was something wrong with me. I knew I was feeling a lot more than other people did in the same situations. Say 4 mangers and the boss are sitting in a conference room, and the 4 managers are getting chewed out. And I am one of the managers. And the boss is a wildly angry apoplectic man who yelled first and asked questions later. And say he was screaming at the 4 of us. I was the one paralyzed with fear. The rest were merely uncomfortable or embarrassed. But me? I was terrified and cried in the bathroom after the meeting was over.
So I've known a long time, particularly around angry people like my old boss that something was wrong. I also know or am learning how to either stick up for myself, fight through the fear and stick up for myself or else walk away. Since being diagnosed I have practiced many times giving that old boss a piece of my mind!
Anyway welcome and glad to have you!