Hello. I found this website recently and it clicked in my mind that I'm CPTSD. I know that CPTSD is not officially recognized, but it should be. I am 39 and married with 4 kids. I'm about to be 40 next month. I have been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. I knew I had SAD long before it was established as a real disorder. Was on meds for a while, but antidepressants don't help. I have managed to get xanax a few times from general physicians, but they commonly don't want people to develop dependence on them. I struggle with compulsive online chatting with other women. It's a way for my to escape when I feel stressed or panicky. I have struggled with other sexual behavior in the past, but have gotten it under control. I go to a 12-step group for this.
My father is undiagnosed Aspergers with social anxiety. He smokes constantly to manage his anxiety. My mother was sexually and emotionally abused as a child. She has PTSD and panic disorder as a result. Both were emotionally neglectful to me in childhood. I only remember two hugs in childhood from them (touch deprivation). I have no memory of being told 'I love you.' As a result, I constantly and consistently feel unloved and unsettled, and struggle with low self-esteem and social anxiety. My parents divorced when I was around 11 and they essentially stopped parenting. I became very isolated from then and onward.
Hello. I welcome your thoughts, especially if you think this is CPTSD or attachment of what.
-Mark.
My father is undiagnosed Aspergers with social anxiety. He smokes constantly to manage his anxiety. My mother was sexually and emotionally abused as a child. She has PTSD and panic disorder as a result. Both were emotionally neglectful to me in childhood. I only remember two hugs in childhood from them (touch deprivation). I have no memory of being told 'I love you.' As a result, I constantly and consistently feel unloved and unsettled, and struggle with low self-esteem and social anxiety. My parents divorced when I was around 11 and they essentially stopped parenting. I became very isolated from then and onward.
Hello. I welcome your thoughts, especially if you think this is CPTSD or attachment of what.
-Mark.