Quote from: Three Roses on June 25, 2017, 02:09:21 AM
Welcome, I want you to know you've come to the right place.
Um... if the "help" you're getting is telling you "get on with the day and get a job", RUN don't walk to the nearest exit. Here's a link to some printable info for your health care professionals - http://www.outofthestorm.website/downloads/
Complex PTSD is different than PTSD, a fact not recognized by all health care professionals. So different in fact that several alternate names have been suggested, like DESNOS, or DTD, and my favorite, "Cumulative" PTSD, doing away with that pesky "complex" word and removing the confusion that we just think our ptsd is more complicated than others'.
We won't tell you just get on with things, or stop thinking about it, or count you're blessings, or any other of the many UNhelpful suggestions we get.
I'm glad you're here and I'm looking forward to hearing more from you.
Thank you for the kind words I just know that if I bring that list they will not take it seriously since they are the 'professionals' and have often adviced me against going on the internet and self diagnose, I can see the rationale behind it, but I just KNOW that this is not normal, I'm not crazy. That's the hardest part about having been in psychosis, even when your sane as can be people still look at you differently, they see you as 'sensitive' and you become infantalized saying you need 'rest' when you become to assertive, it makes me feel really self-conscious, constantly filtering what I can say based on if I might sound crazy or not to them so my real feelings about my mom and what I saw I have kept closely inside towards my relatives. How can you say that about your own parents? It's a nice coctail of guilt shame self doubt and fear of being found out any moment now
The psychologists I have been seeing never even mentioned anything about trauma to me, even after hearing this story, I trusted them and really did thought that maybe it was just lack or routine and a job and that I am just lazy. I don't know.,.